A departure from goal-setting


Stay tuned for some upcoming changes to this blog.

Several months ago I started setting it up as a guide to goal-setting. That’s because (as you should know by now) I put a lot of faith into setting goals, and have enjoyed some huge accomplishments because of my goals.

My life has changed over the last few months, and my attitude has changed with it. I still find goal-setting a valuable practice, but I have realized it can get out of hand. As you’ve seen from reading my blog, I often have 2 to 5 goals at a time, and each of those goals may include a few different sub-goals.

At a certain point, goal-setting must be balanced with enjoying life as it is, and having some room to be spontaneous and forgiving when the unexpected happens. Allowing for a margin of uncertainty makes life much more enjoyable than planning every single detail in advance.

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Enjoy the present

Often in the media we see messages about exercising and dieting to lose weight. People put themselves through unpleasant regimes to achieve a distant goal. Exercising and eating healthy food becomes a burden, and every moment of it feels painful – like a chore.

This kind of forced healthy lifestyle has never appealed to me. Exercise helps me de-stress, and I often feel euphoric after a sweat-sesh. Eating healthy isn’t a burden, it’s a pleasure, simply because I know that I will physically feel sluggish and grumpy if I repeatedly eat unhealthy food. I try to live a healthy lifestyle for the immediate benefits – not some distant goal. I’ve never understood the pressure and guilt other people experience when putting themselves through some kind of intense weight-loss program.

So the question is, why do I set goals in other areas of my life that make my daily life filled with pressure, guilt, and strife? I think it’s about finding balance.

Of course it’s nice to have a mission in life, and always take actions towards shaping your life to represent that mission.

And sure, goals come in handy from time to time. They can help you push yourself a little harder when you need to tackle a particular, temporary issue, like acing a job interview, or passing a test. But having a series of ongoing goals with no real reward and no relief in sight just, quite frankly, sucks.

This blog’s makeover has already begun, as I’ve changed the visual layout. In the coming weeks I’ll modify the content, to reflect a departure from goal-setting. I’d like to turn it into a blog where I can just share my thoughts and hopefully create a place that my readers and I can enjoy for its own sake.

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Making the most of mistakes as a solo entrepreneur


This post originally published on Medium.com. Read on Medium here.

“Talk to you later,” I quietly urge my friend over the phone, “I’m at a coffee shop, writing.” Ending the call, I sip my latte and turn to my computer. Now it’s time to type my living through the ever-famed, digital nomad lifestyle that’s become my reality over the last two years.

The comforting hum of a brewing drink muffles light banter between friends at a neighboring table. I sure hope I can get some work done. About to type the outline for this article, a million clever ideas flow through my mind, when I’m suddenly assaulted by a polite blue notification:

Your battery is critically low. Plug in now.

Then it hits me: I forgot my laptop cord. Now I need to go straight back home. I can’t get any work done otherwise.

Working remotely in the coffee shop

Despite the lessons I’ve learned as a remote freelancer these last two years, I still make plenty of gaffs. I’m here to share some of the lessons I’ve learned, with the aim of not sounding too prescriptive. I offer these tips simply as a heads up about what to expect out there on your own career adventure.

I never like tips without context, so before I get into them, here’s some background about how I found myself in this situation, running a micro-business a mostly remote freelance writer. If you’re an impatient reader like me, and want to get straight to the good stuff, feel free to skip down to the tips.

Welcome to the new work frontier

The way we work is changing. A rapidly growing number of professionals are leaving conventional employment and becoming solo (and largely remote) entrepreneurs. Though we benefit from an unprecedented independence, we can often feel lost, without the guidance and structure of a traditional work environment.

No one anticipated this. In our childhood dreams we saw ourselves as nurses, firefighters, or maybe teachers. Who knew that an economic crisis and tech revolution would create the perfect societal storm to swirl us away from the traditional career of the past and wash us on to the unknown shores of digital entrepreneurship?

Like many others, I work for myself and define my own working conditions. Now instead of commuting to the office in crowded traffic, we walk to the neighborhood coffee shop and plug in our laptops. Instead of cringing through company gossip at the water cooler, we pay money for co-working spaces, just to get out of the house.

We’re pioneering the frontier of a new work landscape. Along the way we get to learn firsthand what pitfalls await us on this professional path.

Obstacles along the digital entrepreneur path

With no business degree or prior experience running a company, the initial leap from employee to self-employed can leave you feeling lost. Remote working compounds that feeling since most of us work alone in an empty house, and unwittingly consume a flood of dubious business and productivity advice online every day.

I’m here to say if you feel this way at the start of your self-employment journey, you’re not alone. While the challenges seemed impossible when I first got started, they have helped me develop a resilience and adaptability that I’d like to pass on.

First-generation entrepreneurs

Unlike previous generations, as Millennials, we can’t expect to stick with the same job throughout our careers. Every day is an adventure where we try on different hats.

In the morning I write, during lunch I listen to marketing podcasts, and in the afternoon I deal with accounting. In contrast with the archetypal enterprising families you read about in Forbes, my parents are not businesspeople. For me, managing all of the different facets of a business is not a skill I learned at an early age.

I guess you could say I’m a first-generation entrepreneur, and I definitely did not inherit any sense of business acumen. Without those traditional support systems, I’ve had to learn how to make the most of my mistakes as a solo entrepreneur.

Here are three tips that have helped me along my own path.

Three tips for making the most of your mistakes

Start going, and keep going

Get some experience, even if you don’t have any yet.

In college I took a break from my studies to live in France, and spent the better part of two years studying French, trying to prepare. But when I finally showed up in France, anxiety overwhelmed me as I started speaking with real French people who weren’t my teacher.

Looking back, I still think that nothing could have prepared me for how nervous I’d feel those first few weeks in France. Any time a French person couldn’t understand me (or vice versa), I’d endure a horrible pang of self-doubt.

But I studied this for two years! Is my French really that bad? I’d wonder.

That’s why when I eventually moved to Italy, I felt comfortable showing up without a solid command of the Italian language. I decided to learn by ear. I used plenty of incorrect grammar, leading to an abundant number of misunderstandings. But I learned the language of the people, not the textbooks. Overall, I learned to accept that my skills weren’t perfect, and moved on.

You can prepare for the next step in your career with years of education, but until you start getting hands-on experience, you’ll never know what practical tools or skills you really need.

How does this tie in to entrepreneurship? Let’s take rate negotiations. Don’t know what to charge? Take an educated guess. Do some research first, but don’t overthink it. You’ll learn quickly if you’re bidding too low or too high.

Keep going — learn from the first mistake.If you undercharged last time, charge more next time. You’ll probably miss the mark a handful of times until you get it right.

Here’s what the opposite of this looks like: you don’t know what to charge, so you never ask for the sale. Or possibly even worse, your first offer gets rejected, leaving you feeling wounded and afraid to try again. If it gets rejected, you’ve got to keep going. Keep marketing yourself. Find new clients. Try again. And again.

Keep track of issues, and use them as your road map

Six months after I got started as a freelancer in the gig economy, I started getting referrals to side projects and needed to create proposals with my own price quotes. I’d heard the advice plenty of times — clients will pay a premium for services they value. Constrained by fear of losing the sale, I undercharged. Sure enough, this lead me to make a deal with a client who didn’t value my work, treated me like dirt, and paid late.

Without that mistake, I would not have internalized the advice I’d previously ignored. I have no regrets. I had to go through that experience to develop confidence to charge a premium. Otherwise I simply would have followed advice that I didn’t really believe in.

Maybe you can’t change your pricing model just yet, but you can keep track of issues and use them to make a plan for the future. Be honest with yourself and take a look at where you’re currently lacking. Then use that as feedback to shape the way you develop your business over time.

So how do you keep track of issues? Here are a few suggestions:

  • Trello has an excellent interface for tracking issues. Whenever there is a problem or some area for improvement, add it to a backlog. Keep your issues organized in columns and progress them along the path from Backlog > In Progress > Done.
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  • Post-its make a great analog substitute for Trello, and is best for tactile learners. Write each issue on a Post-it and stick it on the wall. *Disclaimer: I take no responsibility from the interpersonal fallout this may create with your housemates!
  • Excel (or Google Sheets) can come in handy for tracking multiple projects or tasks. With a touch of Google-Fu, you can find plenty of project management spreadsheet templates to choose from. Or you can tweet me (@NewtonLanguages) and I’ll send you a download of the template I use. With this method, the key is to write a thorough description of actions you’ve taken, and make sure you document the outcomes. Keep track of everything, or else you’ll forget what works and what doesn’t!
  • Scrum Methodology is a project management method that helps you focus on one thing at a time and gradually make improvements without getting overwhelmed. Though it’s typically intended for product development, you can apply the same principles on a micro-level to your solo projects.
  • Taiga is my new favorite project management app. It provides the ideal set of tools for implementing Scrum Methodology. It has the same cards as Trello, but also includes a timeline that documents all of the actions you’ve made (automatically — less work for you). You can also keep an archive of all of your sprints and user stories. If this scrummy lingo is over your head, never fear! I recommend reading up on Scrum Methodology (http://scrummethodology.com).

Find a mentor (or a circle of mentors)

Before changing careers, the challenge of finding a mentor felt hopelessly daunting. I still couldn’t admit to myself that I needed one. But now that I’ve learned to set my pride aside, I can see how much greater my opportunities are when I’m open to learning from others.

Take, for instance, learning to code (which I’ve been muddling through since 2014). I find that I can spend five hours banging my head, trying to teach myself something in the safe anonymity of my own thoughts, or I can pick up the phone and call my dev mentor to get the simplified version in five minutes.

The same goes with different multidisciplinary skills where I’m (admittedly) lagging behind. Whenever I face my fear of looking dumb and decide to just ask someone for help, not only do I accomplish more work more quickly, but I establish more connections and build a stronger support system.

A circle of mentors can support multidisciplinary needs

Mentoring goes both ways — you can reciprocate by lending your own skills and expertise to support your mentor in their weak areas. This doesn’t mean you have to become business partners, but you’re much stronger bouncing ideas off of someone else who can hold you accountable, rather than plodding along in isolation.

So, how to put this in action? If you’re extraverted, go to some networking events based around your career interests. Depending on where you live, you can probably find them on:

For us introverts, you may want to warm up first by participating in some online groups through:

Look through the forums, and post discussion topics when you can. Depending on your industry, some groups may have a Slack Channel you can join. The more you get involved, the greater the odds you’ll meet collaborators with complementary strengths.

Mistakes are good

Mistakes are where experience comes from. They draw your attention to areas where you can improve. It’s on you to listen to what your mistakes are telling you, and turn them into actionable goals.

Your own experience and intuition overshadow any number of hundreds of tips you can read about online (even mine). While you’re exploring new territory and a living professional life you never prepared for, mistakes can be the basis for developing an intuition that is uniquely yours and can’t be copied.

As you progress and build your own business from the ground up, you’ll amaze yourself with how much you’ve accomplished. All the same, just don’t be too hard on yourself when you run out of laptop battery and realize you forgot the cord.

 

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Are we creating more value or just clutter?


This post originally published on Medium.com. Read on Medium here.

I’ve spent the last week packing, as I prepare to move — prior to that I had writer’s block, and haven’t updated my blog for a long time. The fact that I didn’t have much to say felt like a problem at first, but packing has surprisingly changed my mind. Why?

It’s got me thinking about all of the different useless things (clothes, knick-knacks, emails, blog entries, applications, electronics, articles, statements, songs, commercials, ads, jingles, logos) that we as humans create, and how much simpler our lives could be if we all agreed to stop producing and holding on to stuff that has no value.

Join me on this mini-adventure as I explore my own bizarre relationship with stuff, things, objects, etc. . ., and how the universe conspired to help me draw these conclusions.

“If you can’t say anything nice. . .”

Forgive me for relying on tradition, but I figure it’s best to explore the matter from a chronological perspective.

We all heard it growing up:

If you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all.

First of all, I don’t agree with this statement and I think we sometimes need to say things that aren’t nice. I suggest a revision:

If you can’t produce anything of value, don’t post it on the internet.

Or maybe:

If you can’t produce something that will benefit someone somewhere in some way, don’t produce anything at all.

Because I feel like the opposite tends to happen. We publish blog posts when we have nothing interesting to say, or are afraid to write about issues that really matter. We manufacture cheap goods that break after one use and end up in a landfill. We buy things on whim and they get buried in a drawer.

My dad’s wisdom

As a kid I enjoyed volunteering at the yearly yard sale for my mom’s church. It was a huge sale that usually generated lotsa cash, at least from a kid’s perspective, because we had so many donations and could offer such a large selection that pretty much anyone could find something they’d want from it.

Despite the large volume of goods sold, we always closed the day with a sizeable surplus. So after the sale, someone or other would load up a truck or two and haul the extra, unwanted junk to the dump (or as the British would say, they brought the rubbish to the tip).

One time I rode along with my dad to the dump and I remember him saying something really insightful. He said (though not in so many words) that it’s mind-blowing to think about how many people worked to produce this stuff — how much sweat and tears went into it, the deadlines and quotas and stress surrounding its production — and in the end, nobody wanted it! They wouldn’t even take it for 50 cents apiece! And its journey on this earth unceremoniously came to an end here, now, in a landfill.

Writer’s block and why (not how) I’ve overcome it

Now to bring us up to the present / recent past:

I’ve been a bad blogger — I haven’t published a new entry for months. That clearly goes against good blogging practices (side note: this is my first entry on Medium — woohoo!).

Strangely, I have to say that during these last few months I haven’t written because it didn’t cross my mind to. I had nothing in particular to share. And that’s OK.

So why did I overcome my writer’s block? Probably because it’s hit me that moving back to the USA in a few weeks and I feel inspired.

Going forward I’ll make the conscious decision to reserve space on the internet for the times I can produce my best work, and not try to crank out empty content, just to meet a quota. You’re welcome.

Packing feel-goods

My husband is a far tidier person than me and he often expresses how much he hates clutter. As the sloppier half of the couple, I don’t have any conscious dislike of physical clutter, but the relief is undeniable as I wave goodbye to the sweater I used to wear to the office three winters ago, when I was itching for a career change.

Yesterday I held that sweater in my hands and felt immense satisfaction stuffing it into a bag with a bunch of other raggedy items, knowing that I could close that chapter of my life — my career has changed. I’m a new person. Goodbye, sweater.

Give it away

Whenever I move (which is often), I’m usually on my way to a foreign country, and end up purging about 2/3 of my stuff, giving it to charity (under the presumption that someone might actually want it). It’s become a purifying ritual for me, and a chance to reflect on all of the good and bad times I’ve seen during my stint in [insert location here].

Giving my stuff away forces me to prioritize:

  • What can I live without (just about everything)?
  • What do I actually use?
  • What do I hold on to, even though it’s been lodged in my closet for over a year?

Part of this may be influenced by an unlikely role model I stumbled upon at age 19, when I read the autobiography of Anthony Kiedis. In it he explains how The Red Hot Chili Peppers song, Give it Away is about, well, giving stuff away. I especially dig the following lyrics:

“Greedy little people in a sea of distress

Keep your more to receive your less

Unimpressed by material excess

Love is free love me say hell yes”

The point is basically that love, human interaction, and firsthand experience carry far more value than material possessions. And in a way, if you’re feeling very attached to a specific possession, you may find more satisfaction giving it away than keeping it.

Awesome people working to reduce waste

On a more serious note, there are people who have decided, precisely becauseof the world’s limited resources and space, to make daily efforts to reduce waste and promote conservation. Here are a few examples:

My closest confidant

Sometimes I’m tempted to role my eyes when my husband insists that we recycle. Don’t get me wrong — I understand the benefits of recycling, but sometimes I get lazy. Nonetheless, I find his diligence inspiring, and his passion for conservation has influenced countless other people (myself included) to adopt better habits.

The Tree House Bookshop

Here in Kenilworth we have a used bookshop with an intriguing mission. It’s self-described as a social enterprise, and the following quotes are taken from the About Us page of its website:

“The aim of the Tree House is to keep physical books on the high street, including books that are not easily available because they are out of print or out of the bestseller charts, and to promote the importance of literature in our increasingly anti-intellectual society.”

and

“A Social Enterprise is a non-profit, asset-locked organisation, with a focus on what it can offer to the community, and any profits are reinvested in the business or, when possible, given to charity. We love to support charities that support the conservation and preservation of trees and woodland, and we also support local charities when we can.”

I wish there were more bookshops actively aiming to recirculate used books so that fewer trees will be cut down, and reinvesting profits in their communities. I will miss this gem.

Oxfam

Finally, today on my trip to the donation bin, I came across an intriguing quote:

“Sainsbury’s and Oxfam working towards zero landfillI”

Pay no attention to the crazy woman taking pictures of the bin

It wasn’t until today that I learned this about Oxfam — in addition to fighting global poverty, they also have an underlying goal of working towards zero landfill.

I guess if you think about it, why should some of us both produce and consume way more resources than we need (and generate excess waste), especially when other people in the world have access to way less resources than they need?

No, really — why?

The takeaway

Now let’s address the question I’m sure we’re all wondering: what does this have to do with anything?

I mainly hope we can come to an agreement:

  • I wait to write my next blog entry until I’m ready say something I genuinely care about — something that might have a positive impact on someone’s life.

AND

  • We all take a moment to reflect on what kind of impact we’re having on our communities (and even our world) before the next time we write an email, go shopping, or ship something to the dump.

Let’s ask ourselves if we’re creating value or just more clutter.

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Lessons my students taught me


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During my second year of college I remember watching a documentary about Yo-Yo Ma in class, in which he stated that he loves teaching because he always learns so much from his students.

I saw this before I ever started teaching, and I guess it’s always echoed in the back of my mind as some kind of romanticized talking point that I haven’t really connected with until recently.

My first professional teaching experience came halfway through college when I took a year off to live in France. As an English teaching assistant at a high school, I did not feel impassioned by my work. Call me crazy, but there’s just something about working in an institution with resistant youth that makes me want to run and hide.

While my first teaching experience was’t the most satisfying, I’ve strangely found myself pulled back into teaching again and again throughout my career. 

Most recently, my teaching tendencies have lead me to instructing English as a Foreign Language in an e-learning environment. From my first lesson I knew this was a better fit for me. All of the issues that turned me off in the high school setting were absent – I was teaching adults one-on-one, and only working with professionals who were so motivated to learn English, they were willing to pay money for lessons.

Looking back, I think it’s safe to say that my students taught me more than I taught them, and in a way they even became my unintended career mentors.

I’ve coached some of the most driven, motivated, successful career people I’ve ever met. I’ve coached doctors through their academic writing projects, and helped corporate managers prepare for job interviews and conferences. I’ve accompanied students alongside gruelling journeys as they’ve strived to earn language certificates and get accepted to academic programs.

I guess you could say they’ve taught me how to pursue a challenging, yet rewarding career.

Before I started this most recent teaching gig, I was in a very frustrating place, career-wise. I found myself in a dismal workplace where there was little hope of advancement, and a feeling of being on the outside looking in when it came to the small, elite group that were eligible for some kind of upward movement or enjoyable work responsibilities. There was a sense of futility when it came to striving for higher-level goals, and this is one of the main reasons I knew it was time for a change.

Back to the point, I just want say, I couldn’t be happier with how everything has unfolded. My students have taught me – nay, showed me – what ambition, resilience, drive, and courage look like, during a time when all of those traits seemed most elusive.

Now I’m moving on again, away from teaching as I focus on what I love most: writing. But I wanted to take a moment to acknowledge the positive impact this teaching experience has had on me. I might not have reached this point if it weren’t for my students.

Sometimes it’s not until looking back that you realize how much you’ve learned, and who you’ve learned the most from. So, just saying, maybe take a look around to see who your greatest teachers are. You may just surprise yourself.

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Globetrotting Millenials Demystified


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We all know at least one – you know who I’m talking about. The twenty-something who interned in Paris last year, moved to Beijing last week, and spent the summer volunteering in Lima.

We all know at least one (but probably more than a handful) of these globetrotting millennials who seem to live in a new place every other month, who post beautiful pictures of exotic destinations on Facebook, who make us jealous and deeply perplexed, as we wonder,

“How can she afford it?”

“Why can’t he just settle down?”

“Does this person have any kind of plan for the future?”

Speaking as an offender, myself, I’m here to shed light on what’s going through our over-stimulated minds as we make such mind-blowing decisions.

To start things off, let me share a weakness that’s followed me since childhood: daydreaming, mind-wandering, spacing out, whatever you like to call it.

Let’s go all the way back to testing days in elementary school. Rather than the standard classroom lesson, that day my teacher came bearing stacks of flimsy testing booklets and scantrons, so the state could assess my aptitude at being a fourth-grader so far. The scantron came with specific instructions on how to fill the boxes correctly. Following those instructions artfully became the most enjoyable part of taking the test, until my eyes drifted to the window.

That window called to me – the flowers in bloom, other kids playing hop-skotch on the playground, an occasional cloud against the blue sky. . . My mind wandered as I twirled my hair, and before I knew it, old Teach up there was giving the 15-minute warning. Time was almost up! The test results came back ok, all things considered. Of course they may have been higher if I had tried harder. But in spite of all the good reasons I had to concentrate on the test (good grades, promising future) I cared less about the test and more about the possibilities the outside world had to offer.

Fast-forward 20 years to the same girl in an adult body, making adult money, and with an infinite amount of data and options available at her fingertips.

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We can access any kind of information at any time. We can book a flight to (just about) any location in the world with the click of a button. We’ve waited longer to have kids than our parents did, meaning that whatever money we make is ours, gloriously ours! To top things off, we’ve witnessed millions of people lose their retirement savings in an instant, so have never had much faith in the traditional work-for-the-same-company-till-retirement archetype.

We find ourselves once again caring less about forcing ourselves into a box, and more about exploring the endless possibilities the outside world has to offer! Sometimes we even want to want a more stable, traditional, life path – but on a visceral level we’re excited and enlivened by the alternative opportunities available. In the end, genuine excitement and passion win.

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Still feel mystified by a millennial in your life? Leave a comment!

Keep an eye out for my next entry: Millennial bloggers and the personal branding dilemma, where I’ll cover how we manage to afford our lifestyles, and the dilemma we face as we try to lay groundwork for the future.

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How to celebrate Thanksgiving as an expat living abroad


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Christmas is on the way, and you see decorations popping up all over the beautiful, exotic locale you’ve chosen as your expat destination. But when your colleagues start complaining about Christmas shopping in November, you’re reminded that these poor folk don’t know the joys of celebrating humble Thanksgiving before the glitz and commercialism of Christmas really take hold.

This year will be my fourth celebrating Thanksgiving abroad. It goes without saying that the tradition is worth exporting, so every year I take on the challenge of celebrating it without the abundant Thanksgiving paraphernalia the USA has to offer. Results so far have been something of a mixed bag. My first Thanksgiving abroad took place in Toulon, France. It was amazing, if not sort of a haze. The second was a on the impersonal side, celebrated in the midst of a huge expat community of over one hundred people in Aix-en-Provence, France. Last year I celebrated Thanksgiving in Padova, Italy, surrounded by Italians, with a pair of whole chickens instead of turkey, making it was the least American-esque of the celebrations so far.

Back to the point: I find myself at this juncture once again, feeling out of my depth without a fellow American by my side to help coordinate. What’s an expat to do, with a turkey to buy, a party to plan, and expectations to set with local friends? I want to write a guide not just for other expats, but also for myself, so I can tackle this head-on come next year.

Here’s my guide so far (please remind me if I’m forgetting anything):

  1. Two months in advance, start asking around town (local markets, butchers, etc. . .) if they sell whole turkeys or know where a whole turkey can be purchased. Trust me: you will not find a turkey if you put this off till the week of Thanksgiving. Furthermore, if you happen to find a place that sells turkey, you may need to start saving up for it well in advance, since turkeys don’t come cheap outside the US (at least in European countries).
  2. One or two months in advance, decide what day to celebrate Thanksgiving. Since you and your friends probably have to work on the actual holiday, that leaves either the Saturday before or after. Take your pick.
  3. Send invites at least a month in advance. Try to paint a picture for your local friends about what to expect on the day of Thanksgiving. Most of it seems like common sense for us – eating in the middle of the afternoon, reserving time for games, taking seconds and thirds until you stuff yourself silly, and so on. But if you don’t let your friends know what the big deal is, they may not share your excitement about how awesome Thanksgiving is.
  4. Find a foodie amongst your friends and enlist his or her help. When you don’t have a big group of extended family members volunteering to help out with this or that dish, the responsibility of planning the entire event falls on your shoulders alone. Make sure you find a helper who loves food and has a passion for planning. Trust me here: if you don’t have at least one other person to help, it can take the fun out of organising the event.
  5. Once you have your RSVPs, assign a dish for each guest to cook. Run the menu by a family member during a Skype chat to make sure you’re not forgetting anything.
  6. A week in advance, make your final decision about a turkey alternative (since you probably ignored #1). Make sure you have enough supplies, like plates, bowls, cups, silverware, casserole dishes, table clothes, and especially chairs to accommodate your guests.
  7. One or two days in advance, go grocery shopping! Since you don’t have to compete with other Thanksgiving shoppers, you’re probably safe waiting till the last minute. Of course if you have any specialty ingredients on your list, buy those earlier as they could be hard to find in standard supermarkets.
  8. On the big day, be ready to welcome your guests warmly to your makeshift Thanksgiving celebration abroad! Who knows, maybe the locals will even adopt the tradition if you make sure they have an amazing time and a tasty meal.

There you have it! That’s the expat’s Thanksgiving planning guide. Dear future self: you’re welcome.

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October across the years


October is probably my favorite month. Every year it brings excitement, festivities, and changes.

So far, October in England has proven to be beautiful. I find my self whipping my phone out to take lots of pictures lately.

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Pretty fall leaves

Local castle. . .you know, because we just have one.

Local castle. . .you know, because we have one.

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Harry Potter-esque mist I discovered one morning

Today it dawned on me that I’ve spent October in lots of different and (and not to brag or anything) beautiful places. This is a summary of those different places, and pictures to go along:

2007: Toulon, France

Beach down the street from my old place

Beach down the street from my old place

La place de la liberté

La place de la liberté

2008: Aix-en-Provence, France

Friends Ben and Claire by the neat-o, centuries-old fountain

Friends Ben and Claire by the neat-o, centuries-old fountain undergoing restoration

View from one of my classrooms

View from one of my classrooms

2009: Salt Lake City

Halloween in SLC

Halloween in SLC

2010: Salt Lake City

Halloween in SLC: because SLC knows how to party for Halloween

Because in SLC we know how to do Halloween

2011: Washington, DC

'Merica!

‘Merica!

Interning it up

Interning it up

Occupy protesters around the corner from my (makeshift) office

Occupy protesters around the corner from my makeshift office

2012: Salt Lake City

Sugarhouse park

Sugarhouse park

Posing with a turkey. Because WFT not?

Posing with a turkey. Because just WFT not?

2013: Utah (SLC and other)

Zion National park: something beautiful on the horizon

Zion National park: something beautiful on the horizon

Time with awesome friend Shelby

Time with awesome friend Shelby

2014: Padova, Italy

Palazzo del Bo (I hope I got that right)

Palazzo del Bo (I hope I got that right)

Come on, it's Italy, What did you expect?

Posing with the obligatory Italian pizza

Seriously, it's Italy, Pizza's the best part

Seriously, it’s Italy. Pizza’s the best part!

That’s it! Thanks for taking this photo tour with me through the last eight years!

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Authenticity helps others help you


Anyone who’s ever learned a foreign language and spent time abroad can relate to the awkward experience of sitting with a group of native speakers, becoming exhausted from trying to follow the thread of the conversation, and eventually giving up and just spacing out. Of course, you could potentially get involved in the group conversation, but you’d have to interrupt every five minutes asking ‘what does X mean?’ or ‘what does Y mean?’.

I’ve been in Italy visiting my husband’s family since Thursday, which means total immersion in Italian once again! This time around I want the experience to be as relaxing as possible, so I decided to be totally up front with people and let them know when I don’t understand WTF is going on with the conversation.

Especially now, after spending the last six months in England and having the chance to recharge the batteries, I’m back in the game. I feel more motivated than ever to participate in the conversation, so I can develop my language skills along with relationships with new friends and family.

After eight years as a language learner, I finally see that the best way to connect and engage is to just be honest about my linguistic weaknesses. Rather than putting on a strong face and saying, ‘I know what I’m doing – I speak Italian. Don’t question my skills!’ this time around I make sure to interrupt the conversation so that other people realize I need help! Before they didn’t know if I needed help. They probably just assumed that I understood everything but was shy, or that I didn’t feel like talking. The point is I wasn’t able to communicate my true personality.

This time I’m making sure to let others know just how much Italian I speak. To be fair, this is a rather high level of Italian. But it’s not perfect. Not to mention, no matter how good your Italian is, you can never be fully prepared for the bazillion different regional dialects you may encounter in Italy. So I make sure to ask for clarification, like, ‘cosa vuol dire matto?’ which apparently means ‘crazy’, or ‘come si dice ice cube?’, which apparently is ‘giacionne’ (er, probably got that wrong).

Now the Italians I know make sure to speak more slowly so I can understand. And when they use the local slang they make sure to pause and explain to me what the new word or expression means. Rather than me having to suffer in silence, now I have a whole team of Italians working with me to make sure I get what’s going on. I’ve basically empowered them to meet me where I am.

It makes a big difference, and I feel like for the first time my Italian family and I are really friends. Bonus: my Italian vocabulary is improving like never before!

So, to sum up, when I pretend to be perfect, my relationships get stuck and I feel isolated. As soon as I start to open up about my limitations I feel more connected with others.

Basically, by being honest with yourself and those around you, you can help others help you. And everyone wins! So. . .just sayin. . .maybe this can apply to other areas of life!?

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The Power of Communities


Recently I’ve found myself in the throes of some issues that have followed my for most of my life. You’d think they’d get tired and worn out after awhile, that they’d give up on pestering me – as I boarded the flight to New Delhi, India, or as I made the decision to immigrate to Italy. Who in the hell would want to follow me on those crazy, possibly mis-guided adventures?

I’ve been learning about myself and myself is pointing to same painful memories of the past that I’d just as soon forget.

Ok, I know none of this is making sense yet, so let me try to start from the beginning:

I grew up in Salt Lake City, Utah.

Salt Lake City, as you may know, is a major center for a particular religion. I’m not naming the specific religion here – I’m not writing this to point fingers, create divisions, or bash on anyone.

Simply put, I do not belong, and never have belonged to that religion. And since the majority of Utah’s population does belong to that religion, I was by default lumped into the ‘other’ category.

I never suffered from outright persecution, but more from marginalization – exclusion, rather. I lived in a tight-knit community where everyone knew each other and everyone was looking out for each other –  but I just wasn’t part of that community.

I remember kids rushing into our school classroom, scurrying to hang up their backpacks before the bell rang, and then talking to each other about what had happened at their church activities the night before.

I remember sitting on the swingset with the other ‘other’ kids, looking across the field at the group of ‘normal’ kids and just yearning for that kind of acceptance.

Of course, we all had some kind of bad experience grow up – none of us are immune to growing pains. At some point or another almost everyone was lumped into some kind of category at school – jocks, punks, nerds, whatever. So what do I have to be upset about?

This morning I was reading a book (one of my new favorites) called ‘The Shadow of the Wind’, by Carlos Ruiz Zafón, and found a quote that I feel illustrates the problem perfectly. The book’s protagonist is a child growing up in Barcelona shortly after the end of the Spanish Civil War:

“I had grown up convinced that the slow procession of the postwar years, a world of stillness, poverty, and hidden resentment, was as natural as tap water, that the mute sadness that seeped from the walls of the wounded city was the real face of its soul. One of the pitfalls of childhood is that one doesn’t have to understand something to feel it. By the time the mind is able to comprehend what has happened, the wounds of the heart are already too deep.”

Similarly, I grew up convinced that (although it was rarely explicitly verbalised) I was inherently ‘other’, that any form of support from the greater community was reserved for someone else – but not for me. And it all seemed perfectly natural.

Now as an adult, I’m living a good life, and in many ways the wounds of the heart have healed.

But sometimes it feels like there are still a few that are too deep to heal completely. And they don’t hurt in a really obvious way, like getting punched in the face, but in a more subtle, constant, gnawing way, like what you’d get from walking for miles in uncomfortable shoes, or developing a pain in your wrist from typing away at your computer all day.

In some ways the feelings of exclusion have enabled me to achieve greatness – I have no fear of moving to different foreign countries (within limits of course), or of starting my life over in a new place. I’m not afraid of being the other. In fact, I’m comfortable with it. You could say, if I ever stopped being the other, I don’t know what I’d do!

But I feel that I owe it to myself, to my community (Salt Lake City), and to fellow people who have been marginalized and excluded, to be open and honest about how this has affected me.

For years I thought I needed to always be happy – so much the happier, even, to prove to the world that I had moved on, and that I was bigger than the box I had previously been put into. Would I admit that the marginalization had hurt me? Yes of course, I would. But would I admit that I still felt messed up about it?

‘No’, I’d say. ‘That was my childhood. I’m over it. I’ve moved on.’ I’d lean on clichés like ‘What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger’, or proverbs like ‘Nobody can hurt me without my permission’.

But the truth is that no matter how much work I do on myself, no matter how many months I may go at a time without thinking about how much it sucked to grow up for 18 years with daily reinforcements in my environment telling me that I wasn’t good enough, the truth is I still deal with insecurity and low self-esteem problems. That’s just the way I was conditioned.

And once again, I’ve struggled with the decision of whether to publish this entry. I’m writing from the heart and that’s a big risk for me, especially since some of my readers are people who knew me as a kid. I feel pretty exposed admitting all of this.

I’ve been inspired largely by this Ted Talk video with Morgana Bailey in which Bailey comes out as a lesbian. She discusses the dangers of hiding who you are. And what really struck me is a statistic she quotes. She says the life expectancy of LGBTQ individuals on average is 12 years shorter for people living in anti-gay communities, than for those living in accepting communities. Yep, 12 years less of life to live when people are exluded and ostracized fromt their communities.

So I find myself once again feeling my own responsibility to write something that is genuine and from the heart, and to say that speaking from my own experience, I understand the power of communities. I understand how good they can be on the one hand, and how destructive they can be on the other hand, when they exclude people and don’t value dignity and inclusion for all.

And again, I write this not to sound like a victim or to garner pity. But I feel like putting this out there is better than remaining silent.

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A look at the winner’s triangle for millennials embarking on a career


Great news! Business is picking up!

No, still not web development business. I still have not quite launched my web development career.

Rather, I’ve been getting lots of translation work recently, which is great and the best part is: . . .drum roll. . .I got my first paid writing gig! So you are now reading the blog of a full-blown freelance writer! Woot!

I’ve never been very money-driven, so with all of this new freelance work coming in I’ve found it quite difficult (or maybe agonizing is the better word) to name my own price. It’s forced me to really think about what I’m worth.

I recently became aware of a concept in transactional analysis called the Winner’s triangle, developed by Stephan Karpman. To explain, I’ll back up a little and start with something else called the drama triangle:

drama-triangle

Consider reading this article for a thorough description of the drama triangle. I can’t cover everything in this one blog entry, but the basic idea is that people can get caught up in always playing one or two of these roles, or rotating around the triangle periodically in personal and professional relationships. It’s done as a defense mechanism, and the result is it prevents you from being your authentic self, and making genuine connections with others.

I see this happening my professional life. When it comes to my career I have felt like a victim in many ways. Since money doesn’t motivate me I’ve almost always seen jobs and career as a necessary evil, and I’ve felt like the underdog in lots of ways. I mean, I’m not good at math and science so I couldn’t get a job as a doctor or an engineer. I don’t like arguing so I could never be a lawyer or a CEO of a successful business. My main interests are all related to literary pursuits – reading, writing, learning foreign languages, and such. But I’ve often had this fear that signing up for a career in one of these areas would more than likely leave me struggling financially, hungry and just waiting for someone – anyone – to hire me.

I think my victim-y feelings were exacerbated when I went to Washington, DC for an internship. That was the first time I ever worked a full time job for free, and I was shocked to find myself surrounded by other people my age who were ready and willing to do the same. And while I offered my free labor for just four months, I get the impression that some of my contemporaries were in it for the long haul, doing one unpaid internship after another for much longer than that – possibly even years.

Since then I’ve continued to struggle with this victim complex. It feels like people my age just aren’t valued in the workforce. I’m a millennial, surrounded by other millennials. We’re all just fresh out of college and ready to start our careers. And there are so many of us who are so determined to get a decent career that we’re willing to do anything, even work for free!

So what’s a millennial to do? How can we be expected to feel valued in our professional spheres if asking to be paid anything seems out of line?

So this brings me to the winner’s circle:

winners-triangle

Between discovering the winner’s circle and having to set my own price – determine my own worth – I have found a foothold.

To stop the drama, and stop playing the victim role in my career, the best thing I can do is watch out for my own needs. I need to make sure that the work I agree to do will bring in enough money for me to get by, and that it will not suck away all of my free time and energy.

By taking care of my own needs, and determining my own value, I can put an end to the cycle of drama in my professional life.

Because when you act out one of these roles it doesn’t just affect you. It affects your relationships. It prevents genuine connection. It prevents growth. So you can really do yourself and everyone else a favor by being assertive and asking for what you need.

A few different influences have converged in my life all at once to help me discover this insight. One is finding out about the Winner’s Triangle concept. The second is taking on more freelance work and having to name my own price. The third is listening to an Unmistakeable Creative podcast interview with Patti Digh. It’s called “Honoring the intentions of your legacy”.

In the podcast Patti Digh discusses her own struggles with similar issues, and choosing not to fall into the victim role.

As the title suggests, she says that these changes in her life have motivated her to write more sincerely, and in her own voice. She’s made the choice to communicate through writing something that is genuinely her best work, that she can feel good about releasing into the world when she looks back on it someday. Some people will like it, others won’t, but by god, it’s just what she genuinely wants to write, and be putting out her genuine self, her message just might genuinely touch someone.

This brings me to admit I’ve struggled with the decision of whether to write this entry. It’s a pretty personal topic, and a huge revelation for me. But considering the impact I feel it’s already had on me, I really wish to spread this inspiration to others.

I think that as millennials it’s been a frustrating, uphill battle as lots of us have struggled to find steady work and really get established in our careers. We have inherited a tough legacy. After all, when we were kids no one told us that by the time we finished college the economy would suck and we’d probably end up having to work for free, or on temporary contracts, or that we’d have to pay a huge chunk of our paychecks to cover health insurance. It’s easy to feel beaten down.

But I think there’s hope for us. I think we can all eventually find a way to stop feeling like victims, and stop waiting to be saved by whatever employer will finally hire us. We can break the cycle of drama. We can determine our own self worth and get what we need from our careers.

 

 

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